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[The Negotiator]

You would be more worried if you saw my day dreams today! lol

I feel bad for calling her a fat ass, she isn't, it was just the first thing that came into my head Murder however is what she deserves for making me feel upset although maybe the inspiration will help

Lora, if you work hard, the majority of it all sorts itself out, I give you my word on that! Again, best of luck

I am not looking forward to Uni, want to swap?!

 

[black_cinq]

Thankyou

I'd love to swap.. new life new place new friends.. why dont you want to go?

Maybe you actually enjoyed your time at school

 

[The Negotiator]

My school was great, well sixth form at least, there were times I detested it but when I think about it, it was the best 2 years of my life. We had such a great friendship with our teachers - especially me with the head of sixth form - that it was most of the time actually enjoyable, it became so informal it was fun sometimes. (Yes, I did maths physics chem lol) I just think I had great friends, my own personality for the first time in years and good teachers.

Why I don't want to go? That's far too deep a question to answer on an open forum lol

 

[black_cinq]

I cant believe you had fun doing maths/physics/ chem! Heh, but its cool your school was so relaxed.

Dont get me wrong this year in sixth form has been my best year at school... but thats not saying alot.

But i'd jump at the chance of getting away from here and start again at uni

 

[The Negotiator]

I am the opposite, I liked what I had and wish I could keep it, my reputation and respect, my friends, my place, my car etc. it's all stuff I have enjoyed *another slight tear lol*

 

[black_cinq]

*hands paul a tissue*

Your car, cant believe you've gotta sell it

*cries with paul*

 

[The Negotiator]

Nor me but the insurance + fuel + maintenance would mean bread and water diet I guess Anyway, I built a dead nice bike light kit for my bike so and now I am fit after my job, it will be no problem lol. Only main problem will be going food shopping.

*thanks for the tissue* See the thing is, if things were different I wouldn't go to University...but that's not something to linger on too much

 

[JonnyBoy]

Paul: once you actually get to uni you'll love it! New places, new people, new mates, different way of life, it's f***ing EXCELLENT. I still see my old mates all the time; every few weeks I'm home for a weekend on the p*ss with everyone from home. There's no reason to lose touch just 'cos you're at uni! And its great going all over the country to see other mates at different unis. You won't regret a bit of it mate, trust one who's been there!

Although I concede you're gonna regret selling the car, that's one thing I'd never ever do as I loath public transport!...

 

[The Negotiator]

It's not something I will regret as I have no choice really My parents refuse to support my car and I don't have the "get up and go" to try everything in my ability to keep it (i.e. work 10 weeks for the summer, part time job next year etc.)

I know what you're saying and have heard it so many times, trouble is a lot of people fit in that group but a lot of people were in that group before uni, I am a different and fairly unusual person.

 

[JonnyBoy]

"Unusual"? Nah, you're not, really, plenty of people I know at uni have a similar attitude to yours (i.e. clean living and hard working) - there'll be plenty of people that you've got stuff in common with. I'ts normal to be anxious but there's nowt to worry about - it's 3 or 4 years of fun!

Oh, and that lass you hate at work: next time she bgs you, say nothing and just smile sweetly. It annoys the hell out of people! Or just inform her that she's an insignificant piece of human vermin that represents all that is wrong with society. That upsets people too...

 

[black_cinq]

But Paul why wouldnt yuo go to uni if things are different... dont worry im not asking you to bring up personal issues or whatever but if you dont want to go and dislike the fact you have to go chances are you're not going to enjoy it. You have the ability etc to go i dont get why you dont want to. Or is it because you dont think people will like you/ you dont want to move on from school / parent pressure etc?

Sorry i think that sounded kinda mean :S I didnt mean it like that its just if i had the ability to go to uni id jump at the chance... and i know its annoying when poeple say that when you have the opportunity but just dont want to go kind of thing.

I guess with the car thing.. its only a car and they're too expensive and blah blah blah i cant afford mine but im lucky to have parents that'll pay for the car/ insurance/ tax/ mot and im aware i'm lucky to have that as most people dont.

Who says being an unusual person isnt good though Your FF hottie afterall

 

[The Negotiator]

LOL, you have run in with them too at your place then jonny?! I do usually just ignore it but she does it behind my back all the time so the smiling is impossible - I am quite good at the fake smiling though normally.

I hope there will be people like me or at least (most importantly anyway) that people will accept me for who I am and not make me act like everybody else. For example, I know I might start going out and everything BUT if I don't, I don't want to be made to feel an outcast for being like that,i half was at school but I knew people enough (long before they started going out) to have enough respect not to, but won't have that at university.

Lora, it's complicated, you know I am intelligent and everything, I am also ambitious but for me I don't actually feel grown up enough I guess, I want to experience more before university yet I didn't like the idea of a gap year oddly. TBH, I would have joined the police force, it's something I would love being part of, especially the traffic police, yet for somebody like me, with the pressure like me, it's never going/it never was going to happen. I am so glad I didn't get into Oxford though these days, I have worked hard for 4 years flat-out now, I want to calm down a bit (still work bloody hard though!).

I could go into a lot more detail it's not right here....there's nothing immensely personal but I thing all my stalkers on here know too much already lol.

I am sorry if it seems I am taking a place at Uni when right now I don't even want to go lol


The car; they can afford it, gosh can they afford it lol, just they don't want to now...we haven#t been getting along for a while (woh this is too personal for FF lol) and also my sister is in Paris for next year and she needs their money too.

 

[black_cinq]

Lol - im your only stalker on here (j/k)

Course people will like you at uni theres thousands of people there, they're not all going to not like you are they And the whole going out thing, do what you want, your not the kind of person that would go out just because people will think your weird if you dont afterall.

I still felt like a yr 7 going into sixth form and it just felt wrong. And the fact that i'll be doing A levels next year kinda scares me but i guess it hasnt hit me yet.

I'm sure lots of people feel the same as you before going to uni, im sure i would. I mean i've had the same friends since primary school.. (i know that probably sounds quite sad but nm ) and the thought of not having the same friends at uni would scare me, and the whole being away from home in a place you dont know cant be easy to get used to. But you've also got to think of it as a new start doing something you (hopefully) want to do and will enjoy doing.

You never know if a few years you might decide the job that you took after uni wasnt for you and you join the poilce force... stranger things have happened

I want a break before i go to uni (if i go to uni) i cant imagine me coping going straight from A levels to uni. If i did that i think i'd end up dropping out and never going back.

I'm hopefully going to take a gap year and work for a year before i do anything whether thats go to college to do something useful or waste more time at uni.

Sorry i didnt mean to ask about personal stuff. Tell me to shup up next time :S

 

[JonnyBoy]

LOL, you have run in with them too at your place then jonny?! I do usually just ignore it but she does it behind my back all the time so the smiling is impossible - I am quite good at the fake smiling though normally.

Nah, I don't just mean a "ignore it" smile; I mean smile as though the abuse she's giving you has just made your day, i.e. as if she's just told you that you've won the lottery and that the fit one out of Girls Aloud is her sister who fancies you .
It's a highly-effective headf**k if you do it right! Although I have to admit, one numpty at B&Q was such a knobhead that this wasn't enough, and I had to resort to less pleasant methods to make my point.


I reckon you could do with a bit of time away from any kind of work to chill and think things through. I really hope you don't take this the wrong way but to me you sound a bit stressed and pissed off with things; I know for a fact that, when I feel stressed, all the little worries that I normally don't allow myself to care about (usually to do with lack of girlfriend but lets not get into that one eh!) creep up in my head and get me down. And it sucks!
So, have a day or three off work and do something that you enjoy. Everything always becomes clearer when you're relaxed

 

[The Negotiator]

I hope you're right, if not :S

Don't worry about asking - I like talking to people about it but just not so openly too often. James M will come and give me a pep talk about it soon - he did last time

Sorry about short reply - have a good reason

 

[black_cinq]

Yes and i normally get stressed and pissed off at the fact i have a bf but hes either in portugal or 70 miles away

But we dont want to talk about that either

 

[black_cinq]

I hope you're right, if not :S

Don't worry about asking - I like talking to people about it but just not so openly too often. James M will come and give me a pep talk about it soon - he did last time

Sorry about short reply - have a good reason

Well you know you can tell me to stop asking questing whenever

And im here if u ever wana talk...

 

[The Negotiator]

Lora: Of course Thank you.

I do like to talk about it, it helps

Jonny: I think you're right, but my life can never be that relaxing Bought a PC game on ebay so hopefully will come tomorrow and I will relax doing that I will try that smile with her next time.

 

[black_cinq]

lol - just not always on a public forum

Talkings good

 

[The Negotiator]

I like to talk about it on the net though because I can write things down without looking stupid and embarressed...(i know i do, but nobody can see my face)